When I started loving myself…

There are moments in life when we hit a road block and feel we have no where to turn. Depression and confusion set in not allowing for our true authentic self to grow and radiate. I suffer from this sometimes. What always brings me back is a knowing that I’ve worked incredibly hard these past couple of years to regain the light that had been lost. Sometimes I forget or am not grateful for all that I have and accomplished. Recently I was reminded of how beautiful life really is. A yoga teacher at the studio I practice read a poem by Charlie Chaplin that struck such a cord with me that I felt like I had written it myself. 

The poem brought me back to a sense of humility and appreciation for life. It is my greatest hope that I can inspire people (just like my yoga teacher and Mr. Chaplin have here) to think outside the box and never give up, no matter what…

When I started loving myself” – A poem by Charlie Chaplin written on his 70th birthday on April 16, 1959:

When I started loving myself

I understood that I’m always and at any given opportunity
in the right place at the right time.
And I understood that all that happens is right –
from then on I could be calm.
Today I know: It’s called TRUST.

When I started to love myself I understood how much it can offend somebody
When I tried to force my desires on this person,
even though I knew the time is not right and the person was not ready for it,
and even though this person was me.
Today I know: It’s called LETTING GO

When I started loving myself
I could recognize that emotional pain and grief
are just warnings for me to not live against my own truth.
Today I know: It’s called AUTHENTICALLY BEING.

When I started loving myself
I stopped longing for another life
and could see that everything around me was a request to grow.
Today I know: It’s called MATURITY.

When I started loving myself
I stopped depriving myself of my free time
and stopped sketching further magnificent projects for the future.
Today I only do what’s fun and joy for me,
what I love and what makes my heart laugh,
in my own way and in my tempo.
Today I know: it’s called HONESTY.

When I started loving myself
I escaped from all what wasn’t healthy for me,
from dishes, people, things, situations
and from everyhting pulling me down and away from myself.
In the beginning I called it the “healthy egoism”,
but today I know: it’s called SELF-LOVE.

When I started loving myself
I stopped wanting to be always right
thus I’ve been less wrong.
Today I’ve recognized: it’s called HUMBLENESS.

When I started loving myself
I refused to live further in the past
and worry about my future.
Now I live only at this moment where EVERYTHING takes place,
like this I live every day and I call it CONSCIOUSNESS.

When I started loving myself
I recognized, that my thinking
can make me miserable and sick.
When I requested for my heart forces,
my mind got an important partner.
Today I call this connection HEART WISDOM.

We do not need to fear further discussions,
conflicts and problems with ourselves and others
since even stars sometimes bang on each other
and create new worlds.
Today I know: THIS IS LIFE

Charlie Chaplin 70th Birthday poem

 

This is who I am

My clothing my art

My art the greatest expression of who I am

And for that I am grateful…

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And to the one who’s always stood by me – Mom, I love you. Thank you for instilling a love for all things creative. With out you my art would have never flourished. You inspire me everyday…

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6 thoughts on “When I started loving myself…

    • I’m glad you liked it :) I started to tear up in yoga when she read the poem. It was so fitting for where I’m at in my life right now.

  1. Phoebe,

    You have always been a beatiful person no matter what clothes you wear. Thank you for sharing your self with all of us. We all love you because you are a good person who spreads light and joy in the world.

    • Mary you are going to make me cry, thank you for the beautiful words here. I think you are pretty darn amazing, too :)

  2. What a brave post, Merci… Journaled “I could recognize that emotional pain and grief are just warnings for me to not live against my own truth.” – gonna watch out for that tomorrow. *:)

    • Hi Payam – Thank you for reading and appreciating the post. Sometimes I just need to write from the heart and the poem just really touched me to the core. Have a beautiful day tomorrow and you have a lot to give to the world – I see you going far :)

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